Looking back, I will turn 30 in days- most of my time from waking up to sleepless nights thinking story, writing, working my ass off for other people and constantly developing new story. Bein indebted to make my passion projects and struggling to survive day by day doing work for others. Finished over 10 shorts in English/French/Portuguese/Spanish, a number of commercials, a handful of music videos. Emailing every production company and agency boutiques from the west of California to the east of Egypt. And still yet no opportunity for a single feature to come
To light. I am not complaining but simply venting cause very few people understand the brutal attempt to survive as an artist in today’s corporate money dominated mindset. With 12 years now in the production world- barely getting by and trusting unreliable people- should I still keep going? Is the heart ache meaningful? Something go wrong along the way? How is it that this many incompetent people work and others as me and talented folks I know barely work?
I am turning 30 and can’t help but feel anything but an under achiever.